anger when looking at hair in the mirror

[antonio666]

from time to time when i feel my hair is looking at its worst i end up punching walls and my fists are now always in pain,i have promised myself not to do this again but today i did it again,i just can't help myself for that 30 sec period after checking my hair i lose the plot completley and if i had a gun i know i would blow my brains out.
I know this is not normal behavior but that is my makeup,when i was younger i was obsessive about football(soccer)to the extent that i would practice 6 hours a day so that i would be by far the best player in the school and i achevied it but if i had a bad game or my dad criticised me about my performance i would go into a rage(almost wishing him dead )
for having the audacity to criticise me,and i have took this attitude into the hairloss game,i am such a perfectionist and to see my hair dissapering in front of my eyes is a fate worse than death in my eyes(not saying this is right)but i was so proud of my appearence and to lose it like a dog angers me so much,sometimes i have to resist the urge to get a snaley knife and tottaly rip my face off(my way of punishing myself further for being inperfect and the digust i feel at this hairloss,)this hairloss consumes me night and day never leaving me

I am currently seeing someone about what is going on in my head,not that it is doing much good because the guy is about 150 pounds overweight,talks like a f***** and annoys mebut what else can i do.

I Beginning to beleive that my make up will never allow me to get better.

the thing is it is not that i am not capable of being happy from16 to 25 and half i was living the dream,great job,great looking,going out all the time.
sorry fot the rant but well i don't know

 

[Itsonlyinmyhead]

It is normal to get angry about it, it is one of the steps of acceptance but you do need to learn how to control your anger. Its good that your getting help but if you dont think it is working for you, arrange to see someone else. It sounds like you have BDD as well since you try to be a perfectionist.
You have got to remember that you are who you are.

 

[person]

Well whoever you are seeing I hope he/she is a qualified psychiatrist because as I have said in previous posts counselors do not necessarily have high IQs or EQs. The only people who can help you are proper psychiatrists who are doctors.

 

[s.a.f]

You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

 

[hair today gone tomorrow]

You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

yah...put those 3 alone in a room together and see what happens.

 

[IBM]

antonio666 its time to find other goals in life. Unless you cut your balls you're going to loose something, even tiny, and think always about it. You're building your own prision because of hairloss.

 

[Guest]

sometimes i have to resist the urge to get a snaley knife and tottaly rip my face off(my way of punishing myself further for being inperfect and the digust i feel at this hairloss,)

I often have similiar feelings, not so much because of my hairloss, but rather because of my general ugliness. I say to myself then: "I am already ugly, why not make me even more ugly?"

 

[Guest]

You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

Funny you should group me with these 2 nutters, at least I have buzzed my hair down and I'm trying really hard to accept my faith. Besides, my hairloss is far more advanced than at least Taug's, don't know about antonio666 since he hasn't uploaded any pictures. My fight is basically over while these 2 can still call maintenance a little success. Also I'm not acting like hair is the most important thing in the world... I just don't like the idea of baldness on myself, but I don't think my life's over because of it and I definitely don't adore people with great hair.

 

[Nick4441]

Have you buzzed it. If you are naturally aggressive and it sounds determined and must be confident then buzzed/shaved will give you the hard image. Try to accept that your image is changing and go with it, think of your look as the Vinnie Jones/Vin Diesel and take your aggression out in the gym.

I agree this shitty hairloss thing is depressing,dissappointing and change of image which we have no control over is crap. I feel down every time I look in the mirror and dissapointed in myself and in front of others but I try to ignore it and get on with things and keep confident..nothing more can be done..putting my faith in dutasteride and HM will be here eventually so there is light...

 

[s.a.f]

[quote="s.a.f":ce8ca]You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

Funny you should group me with these 2 nutters, at least I have buzzed my hair down and I'm trying really hard to accept my faith. Besides, my hairloss is far more advanced than at least Taug's, don't know about antonio666 since he hasn't uploaded any pictures. My fight is basically over while these 2 can still call maintenance a little success. Also I'm not acting like hair is the most important thing in the world... I just don't like the idea of baldness on myself, but I don't think my life's over because of it and I definitely don't adore people with great hair.[/quote:ce8ca]

You're not as bad as those two but you seem to be getting there, from your pics it seems barely noticable (nw2?) what will you do if/when you reach nw4/5?

 

[Guest]

[quote="GrowHairGrow!":d91b6][quote="s.a.f":d91b6]You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

Funny you should group me with these 2 nutters, at least I have buzzed my hair down and I'm trying really hard to accept my faith. Besides, my hairloss is far more advanced than at least Taug's, don't know about antonio666 since he hasn't uploaded any pictures. My fight is basically over while these 2 can still call maintenance a little success. Also I'm not acting like hair is the most important thing in the world... I just don't like the idea of baldness on myself, but I don't think my life's over because of it and I definitely don't adore people with great hair.[/quote:d91b6]

You're not as bad as those two but you seem to be getting there, from your pics it seems barely noticable (nw2?) what will you do if/when you reach nw4/5?[/quote:d91b6]

I can quarantee you that it is pretty bad. Dunno about the norwoods, it's just thin on NW5 area. It was noticiable to me year ago and it has gotten a lot worse during this year. Dunno what I will do when I reach NW5, but being supposingly an NW2 with thinning on NW5 area I will know pretty soon.

 

[RaginDemon]

[quote="s.a.f":43122][quote="GrowHairGrow!":43122][quote="s.a.f":43122]You should become mates with Taug, and maybe Growhairgrow.

Funny you should group me with these 2 nutters, at least I have buzzed my hair down and I'm trying really hard to accept my faith. Besides, my hairloss is far more advanced than at least Taug's, don't know about antonio666 since he hasn't uploaded any pictures. My fight is basically over while these 2 can still call maintenance a little success. Also I'm not acting like hair is the most important thing in the world... I just don't like the idea of baldness on myself, but I don't think my life's over because of it and I definitely don't adore people with great hair.[/quote:43122]

You're not as bad as those two but you seem to be getting there, from your pics it seems barely noticable (nw2?) what will you do if/when you reach nw4/5?[/quote:43122]

I can quarantee you that it is pretty bad. Dunno about the norwoods, it's just thin on NW5 area. It was noticiable to me year ago and it has gotten a lot worse during this year. Dunno what I will do when I reach NW5, but being supposingly an NW2 with thinning on NW5 area I will know pretty soon.[/quote:43122]

I know what he means, sometime pics dont justify the real loss. In pics my hair seems to okey but I know how thin it is and it's rather frustrating.

ghg is nowhere close to those two IMO. I ain't blindly defending him, it's just my own perspective on it.

 

[antonio666]

everybodt who is on this forum a lot is mortified by their hairloss,those who say it is no big deal,why are they constantly on the forums,you know who you are

 

[DaSand]

I understand where you're coming from antonio. I realized I've thinned badly in front over 2 years. I do get envious of guys with better hair from time to time, but I don't let it consume my thoughts.

 

[RaginDemon]

everybodt who is on this forum a lot is mortified by their hairloss,those who say it is no big deal,why are they constantly on the forums,you know who you are

I am here to share my own experience, to learn from others and hopefully motivate some of the new members. I definitely care about my hair, but knowing that I have been doing all it can be done to fight it, I dont get obsessed over it.

I also don't spread my negativities like some of the people here, you know who you are.

 

[Guest]

everybodt who is on this forum a lot is mortified by their hairloss,those who say it is no big deal,why are they constantly on the forums,you know who you are

I am here to share my own experience, to learn from others and hopefully motivate some of the new members. I definitely care about my hair, but knowing that I have been doing all it can be done to fight it, I dont get obsessed over it.

I also don't spread my negativities like some of the people here, you know who you are.

I get obsessed over it since I am doing almost everything I can and nothing seems to help.

 

[person]

everybodt who is on this forum a lot is mortified by their hairloss,those who say it is no big deal,why are they constantly on the forums,you know who you are

I am here to share my own experience, to learn from others and hopefully motivate some of the new members. I definitely care about my hair, but knowing that I have been doing all it can be done to fight it, I dont get obsessed over it.

I also don't spread my negativities like some of the people here, you know who you are.

I get obsessed over it since I am doing almost everything I can and nothing seems to help.

You are not doing everything though are you? You haven't even tried Rogaine foam yet - and the longer you leave it the harder it will be to regrow. If you regrow with minoxidil then dutasteride can guard the hair so get on it or ignore my advice like you usually do. Also your hair seems to be of great importance to you so I suggest you get on oral spironolactone, oral minoxidil and oral cyclosporin.

 

[person]

Your silence is deafening Taug.

 

[Guest]

Did you read my signature?` :roll:

I am not trying minoxidil at the moment for various reasons.

- I want to stabilize my hairloss with dutasteride first
- I am scared of the shedding, particularly combined with a possible dutasteride shed
- Maybe dutasteride alone is gonna give me enough regrowth
- I don´t want a bloated face to make me even more ugly


Oral spironolactone I won´t try because I want to build muscles and look like Brad Pitt.

 

[hair today gone tomorrow]

Did you read my signature?` :roll:

I am not trying minoxidil at the moment for various reasons.

- I want to stabilize my hairloss with dutasteride first
- I am scared of the shedding, particularly combined with a possible dutasteride shed
- Maybe dutasteride alone is gonna give me enough regrowth
- I don´t want a bloated face to make me even more ugly


Oral spironolactone I won´t try because I want to build muscles and look like Brad Pitt.

brad pitt doesnt have any muscles....so i have no clue what your talking about....you dont have pitt's genetics so youll NEVER look like him.

I seriously doubt youll get enough regrowth with dutasteride...itll prob stop your loss but you should be on the foam. If finasteride was barely slowing down your loss how can you expect dutasteride to give you enough regrowth so that your hair loss isnt noticeable?