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I don't want to make people feel sorry for me but I really need support right now......
While the Holidays to most is the most joyous occation of gift giving, family visiting etc... It's not the case for me.
I'm 26 years old. I lost my Mother when was 10 and my father when I was 19.
Grandparents of both sides have passed away as well...
the only one in the world who gives me support is my girlfriend. She is with her family this Thanksgiving.. and I couldnt go because of work.. I almost brokedown when she left.
although I want to marry this girl I think our relationship is going south :cry: I havent acted like myself the last 3 months because of my hairloss. she doesnt seem to love/care about me as much as she used to.
she doesnt call or visit me at my work anymore.
I'm terrified. She is litterally all i have left to love on this earth and I would do ANYTHING for her.
I always have a knot in my thoat durring the day.. no matter what.
I've been on zoloft for a while now and it's not helping me like it should...
I hate to be a burdon to anyone but I don't know what i'm going to do.. my life will be ruined wihout her. I can't sleep at night even when i take sleeping aides...
I'm totally fucked.......... I'm sitting here by myself on thanksgiving day just crying. I've even had suicidal thoughts!@? I have anxiety, depression etc........
I simply cannot believe that this is happening to me...........
I don't want to make people feel sorry for me but I really need support right now......
While the Holidays to most is the most joyous occation of gift giving, family visiting etc... It's not the case for me.
I'm 26 years old. I lost my Mother when was 10 and my father when I was 19.
Grandparents of both sides have passed away as well...
the only one in the world who gives me support is my girlfriend. She is with her family this Thanksgiving.. and I couldnt go because of work.. I almost brokedown when she left.
although I want to marry this girl I think our relationship is going south :cry: I havent acted like myself the last 3 months because of my hairloss. she doesnt seem to love/care about me as much as she used to.
she doesnt call or visit me at my work anymore.
I'm terrified. She is litterally all i have left to love on this earth and I would do ANYTHING for her.
I always have a knot in my thoat durring the day.. no matter what.
I've been on zoloft for a while now and it's not helping me like it should...
I hate to be a burdon to anyone but I don't know what i'm going to do.. my life will be ruined wihout her. I can't sleep at night even when i take sleeping aides...
I'm totally fucked.......... I'm sitting here by myself on thanksgiving day just crying. I've even had suicidal thoughts!@? I have anxiety, depression etc........
I simply cannot believe that this is happening to me...........