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karankaran
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It has been 4 years since I started balding. There are times when I am frustrated and think that I am a fool to think that we will have a treatment or a cure one day , I look at examples in the past and wonder if all promising leads are sure to bite the dust.
However, most of the times, I am optimistic. I think that there will be a treatment in the next 10 years. I think about the discoveries, ranging from PGD2 to hair multiplication to any new agent discovered to help with male pattern baldness. I 'Hope' that at least one or two approaches will materialize, even if the rest of them fail.
BUT...while this optimism about future is a good coping mechanism, it also makes me think that I keep on postponing stuff to a day when i get my hair back. As an example, I want to travel to new places, I want to have pictures taken with my full hair and not looking bald, so i think may be i will do it once i get my baldness dealt with. I want to do a Phd in my field but I am tempted to take a job so I can save money for any future treatment, I think once i do that, I will come back to do my Phd. So i keep delaying a lot of things to an imaginary future, a hypothetical future when i am no longer bald. I no longer LIVE in the present and rely on a future which MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT Exist. I sometimes think that i am in my 20s and if i do not enjoy these years doing what i love to do, when will i ever get time for it.
This is why I feel that my hope is a double edged sword. It helps me live through my baldness without being sucked into darkness but then I ask, is it slowly chipping away at my future. Is this really living! This is not my mental state 24*7 but sometimes these thoughts occupy my mind and i want to share it with you guys.
However, most of the times, I am optimistic. I think that there will be a treatment in the next 10 years. I think about the discoveries, ranging from PGD2 to hair multiplication to any new agent discovered to help with male pattern baldness. I 'Hope' that at least one or two approaches will materialize, even if the rest of them fail.
BUT...while this optimism about future is a good coping mechanism, it also makes me think that I keep on postponing stuff to a day when i get my hair back. As an example, I want to travel to new places, I want to have pictures taken with my full hair and not looking bald, so i think may be i will do it once i get my baldness dealt with. I want to do a Phd in my field but I am tempted to take a job so I can save money for any future treatment, I think once i do that, I will come back to do my Phd. So i keep delaying a lot of things to an imaginary future, a hypothetical future when i am no longer bald. I no longer LIVE in the present and rely on a future which MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT Exist. I sometimes think that i am in my 20s and if i do not enjoy these years doing what i love to do, when will i ever get time for it.
This is why I feel that my hope is a double edged sword. It helps me live through my baldness without being sucked into darkness but then I ask, is it slowly chipping away at my future. Is this really living! This is not my mental state 24*7 but sometimes these thoughts occupy my mind and i want to share it with you guys.
