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Hey. Finally i did what HairyGoAgain, JayMan, Aplunk1 said. I got out. My collegues arranged something and they invited me so i went. Most of them brought boy/girlfriends.
I am disappointed because i was the only single there. So i was somehow alone.
My collegues have life defined and were very happy. Some of them will get married soon.
All girls i like/liked didnt like me and/or had/have boyfriends.
I have no future here in social/sexual/familiar terms.
Even my dad's and mom's family (cousins, etc..) dont care about us. I made some invitations to them to go out and they refused saying that they were busy when they went out with other people.
So i made my plan. I'll try to finnish my degree++. I've very good degree so i think its an opportunity to try other country. At least i'll pursuit my child dream.
I feel that my family dont understand what i'm going through or dont want to understand.
It's odd specially from my older brother that's on the same position as me.
My mom says that i've mental problem and lack of anti-depression pills. Taking those pills i'll be happy again. Absurd.
My parents think that i'll live and behave forever as a 11 years old kid in their house.
Maybe my brother does not react in same way like i do because of his full head of hair.
If i had full head of hair i would somehow be more softer with this situation because i would look in the mirror, think that life is eternal and that i've many years to grow up.
I'm very sad. It's normal for a human in my situation to feel very sad? Two years ago my mom yelled at me because i said to my parents i was sick of life as it was. She was very rough at me. She said i shouldnt complain of my life and that i should have shame of myself.
With my hairloss i think of some lonely guys (cousins, etc...) in 40's. I dont want to be like those guys.
I'll tell them how i feel. They cannot censure me. It's normal for a men to desire a wife that he likes? Do you think there's anything wrong for a man to desire that? Wheter they like or not that is their problem not mine.
I am disappointed because i was the only single there. So i was somehow alone.
My collegues have life defined and were very happy. Some of them will get married soon.
All girls i like/liked didnt like me and/or had/have boyfriends.
I have no future here in social/sexual/familiar terms.
Even my dad's and mom's family (cousins, etc..) dont care about us. I made some invitations to them to go out and they refused saying that they were busy when they went out with other people.
So i made my plan. I'll try to finnish my degree++. I've very good degree so i think its an opportunity to try other country. At least i'll pursuit my child dream.
I feel that my family dont understand what i'm going through or dont want to understand.
It's odd specially from my older brother that's on the same position as me.
My mom says that i've mental problem and lack of anti-depression pills. Taking those pills i'll be happy again. Absurd.
My parents think that i'll live and behave forever as a 11 years old kid in their house.
Maybe my brother does not react in same way like i do because of his full head of hair.
If i had full head of hair i would somehow be more softer with this situation because i would look in the mirror, think that life is eternal and that i've many years to grow up.
I'm very sad. It's normal for a human in my situation to feel very sad? Two years ago my mom yelled at me because i said to my parents i was sick of life as it was. She was very rough at me. She said i shouldnt complain of my life and that i should have shame of myself.
With my hairloss i think of some lonely guys (cousins, etc...) in 40's. I dont want to be like those guys.
I'll tell them how i feel. They cannot censure me. It's normal for a men to desire a wife that he likes? Do you think there's anything wrong for a man to desire that? Wheter they like or not that is their problem not mine.
