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karankaran
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1) Taking pictures of your bald spot is so tough. Flash on , flash off, more light, less light - every possibility is utilized to give a hope that the "treatment" is working! Ask someone who has seen your bald spot for years and they say - oh, it looks the same but it has not gotten any worse. That statement makes it a 100 times worse. I feel that until there is a significant cosmetic improvement, where i could barely see my scalp, or see it very faintly, is when i will believe a "treatment" or a "regimen" is working!
2) When I hear "Be patient", I UNDERSTAND that it takes time for a regimen to take effect or work because of hair biology but It is tough to come to terms with it! Every month feels like a year and a time that I will spend not having hair and then again, the doubts about the regimen not working or not working enough! Everything pushing you away from being "patient"! The anxiety about side effects, the exhaustion that sets in after applying stuff to your pumpkin daily for weeks and not seeing the kind of results that should match your efforts you put in to adhere to your regimen! Phew! You should ask a bald man what the word disappointment feels like!
3) Seeing people's head filled with hair in bus, roads, class, shopping malls and I feel like - Man, that looks so good! I wish I can have that! When i sit or stand in front of people, I sometimes try to put my hand through the back of my hair , as if that will solve the problem or somehow magically increase my density ! When someone calls you handsome , I feel good and then, i think "have they seen my bald spot yet?" . That feeling of insecurity that seeps into your psyche and effects you in ways that might some one go "do not over think" , but you know you are not "over-thinking" but this psychology has become a habit!
4) Thinking about grooming yourself , trying to get rid of that back hair, thinking of buying a trimmer - and wait, what is the use! I would be unattractive, anyways, with that bald spot, let that bald spot get filled first and then , i will take care of other stuff and make me perfect! but as long as the bald spot sticks through, i would leave things as it is! This mentality might be self-defeating and might invite ridicule but as i said, your "bald psyche" takes a root in your head!
5) The hope attached with future treatments, thinking about saving money to get those! and then , the endless wait and all the years you loose but still hoping! It is like some one promised you your sexual fantasy but asked you to wait for 7-10 years!
These are not the thoughts I have 24*7 , I might even deviate from them but they are frequent visitors!
2) When I hear "Be patient", I UNDERSTAND that it takes time for a regimen to take effect or work because of hair biology but It is tough to come to terms with it! Every month feels like a year and a time that I will spend not having hair and then again, the doubts about the regimen not working or not working enough! Everything pushing you away from being "patient"! The anxiety about side effects, the exhaustion that sets in after applying stuff to your pumpkin daily for weeks and not seeing the kind of results that should match your efforts you put in to adhere to your regimen! Phew! You should ask a bald man what the word disappointment feels like!
3) Seeing people's head filled with hair in bus, roads, class, shopping malls and I feel like - Man, that looks so good! I wish I can have that! When i sit or stand in front of people, I sometimes try to put my hand through the back of my hair , as if that will solve the problem or somehow magically increase my density ! When someone calls you handsome , I feel good and then, i think "have they seen my bald spot yet?" . That feeling of insecurity that seeps into your psyche and effects you in ways that might some one go "do not over think" , but you know you are not "over-thinking" but this psychology has become a habit!
4) Thinking about grooming yourself , trying to get rid of that back hair, thinking of buying a trimmer - and wait, what is the use! I would be unattractive, anyways, with that bald spot, let that bald spot get filled first and then , i will take care of other stuff and make me perfect! but as long as the bald spot sticks through, i would leave things as it is! This mentality might be self-defeating and might invite ridicule but as i said, your "bald psyche" takes a root in your head!
5) The hope attached with future treatments, thinking about saving money to get those! and then , the endless wait and all the years you loose but still hoping! It is like some one promised you your sexual fantasy but asked you to wait for 7-10 years!
These are not the thoughts I have 24*7 , I might even deviate from them but they are frequent visitors!