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Hello, I'm just going to post this here because this year my life has gone from being happy full of life to completely losing motivation to do anything.
I'm 17 years old and am a musician with long brown hair which everyone tells me is my best feature (WHICH DOESNT HELP AT ALL) and i've always been a good front man in bands and love to perform just like my dad does (whom is 50 and completely bald like patrick stewart) his dad is also the same and he's 70/.
I remember my drummer early this year commenting that I had an M-Head as he called it AKA a receding hairline and immediately I was heart broken when I pulled back my long hair in the mirror and saw my thinning temples slowly fading away.
Then I started taking a hat everywhere I went and still do now in fact as I'm typing this I have a beanie on my slowly balding young skull but that's besides the point.
Cut to now and my hairline has officially turned into an m head where my temples have disappeared completely and I cant even stand to get my hair out and even wont shower just so I don't have to look in the mirror and see my slowly widening forehead.
All I've ever wanted my entire life is to be in a band and perform and have fun and as much as some of you will say OOOH IT DOESNT MATTER you're f*****g wrong. I don't feel motivated to do it anymore I don't want to get on stage and perform because of how horrible it looks.
None of my mates are balding all their dads have full heads of hair and I even resent my dad slightly even though I know it's not his fault it still hurts me to the point where I'm just considering suicide.
I try to kid myself and believe I don't care but I do oh god damn I do care it haunts me I cannot bare that its happening this f*****g early its NOT FAIR. I just want to jump out my window because all ive ever wanted is to perform in a semi famous band HELL MY ROOM IS FILLED WITH MUSICAL EQUIPMENT TO WHERE IVE WRITTEN 50 ALBUMS ON MY OWN THE LAST 3 YEARS. ITS ALL WORTHLESS TO ME NOW I DONT CARE THIS IS KILLING ME AND I CANT f*****g BARE IT.
I'm 17 years old and am a musician with long brown hair which everyone tells me is my best feature (WHICH DOESNT HELP AT ALL) and i've always been a good front man in bands and love to perform just like my dad does (whom is 50 and completely bald like patrick stewart) his dad is also the same and he's 70/.
I remember my drummer early this year commenting that I had an M-Head as he called it AKA a receding hairline and immediately I was heart broken when I pulled back my long hair in the mirror and saw my thinning temples slowly fading away.
Then I started taking a hat everywhere I went and still do now in fact as I'm typing this I have a beanie on my slowly balding young skull but that's besides the point.
Cut to now and my hairline has officially turned into an m head where my temples have disappeared completely and I cant even stand to get my hair out and even wont shower just so I don't have to look in the mirror and see my slowly widening forehead.
All I've ever wanted my entire life is to be in a band and perform and have fun and as much as some of you will say OOOH IT DOESNT MATTER you're f*****g wrong. I don't feel motivated to do it anymore I don't want to get on stage and perform because of how horrible it looks.
None of my mates are balding all their dads have full heads of hair and I even resent my dad slightly even though I know it's not his fault it still hurts me to the point where I'm just considering suicide.
I try to kid myself and believe I don't care but I do oh god damn I do care it haunts me I cannot bare that its happening this f*****g early its NOT FAIR. I just want to jump out my window because all ive ever wanted is to perform in a semi famous band HELL MY ROOM IS FILLED WITH MUSICAL EQUIPMENT TO WHERE IVE WRITTEN 50 ALBUMS ON MY OWN THE LAST 3 YEARS. ITS ALL WORTHLESS TO ME NOW I DONT CARE THIS IS KILLING ME AND I CANT f*****g BARE IT.