@westonci its great you've found some that brings contentment to your life. However, the existence of a creator and a potential afterlife doesn't change the fact that 1) there might not be either 2) that we spend much of our time in this life and devoting time to a higher power doesn't change that. It seems like you've given up on life because you feel like you're inadequate in the eyes of society and so you're using a coping mechanism to ignore the realities. Why not find solace in your new found beliefs whilst having balance - like the benefits of maintaining your hair and a social life at the same time ?