paulie72785
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Me too. It makes it a bit draining to function in the real world, and professionally. I have to put on an act. Of being a normal guy.
The only thing which is getting me through life, and thank heavens for this, is that I am able to lose myself in TV shows. Periodically I will binge on shows like "The Mentalist", imagining myself to be the protagonist. For a few days every year I just stay home all day and watch shows every waking minute. For these few days, I am in a world where I am sexually desirable. For a few days, I don't have to face the reality of being incel for life. My drug of choice. Thank heavens for the internet. I have these "mental breakdowns" 2-3 times a year. I don't do physical drugs - I am sure that if I tried, I would not be able to avoid overdosing.
I remember in my early twenties, I was in a deep deep depression (without realizing it). The thing that made life bearable was the weekly telecast of Smallville. I would be in Tom Welling's shoes for that hour. I would be tall, with hair, handsome, with a great voice.
God damn i feel the same, just one thing that im the deutronganist like robin to batman learning and correcting myslef from the experience.I love Arrow and Dragon ball z, i kinda like it when something out of standard happens.On Arrow im the babbling but ferocious Felicity smoak(Nope not gay for me) and on DBZ im gohan.