Hello, my name is Kaity. I am 20 years old and I started losing my hair in September 2012. At first I did not know what was going on. I was just washing my hair and a large amount of my hair came out. I also had a lot going on at this time. My dad had a heart attack and I also found out that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Well I went to the doctors and they told me that I had Alopecia Areata and to apply some cream to the bold area. I used the cream for awhile and noticed that I was still losing my hair and the bold spot was getting bigger. They told me that I needed to go to a dermatologist. I called and waited for 5 months to even get in to see him. By the time I got to see him in Feb. 2013 I lost most of my hair. With in those five months I was having problems with some girls at work picking on me. I was having a hard time going out in the public (still having a hard time with that.) I wear a hat every where I go. I was really depressed and thought I was ugly. I often think that my family and friends look at me differently. My mom cries every time she see me and I have a twin sister that wont even look at me anymore. She is handicap and doesn't understand whats going on. I would cry myself asleep cause I knew that when I got up and brushed my hair I would lose more of it. Well when I went to the Dermatologist he told me that I have Alopecia Totalis. He explained to me what it was and that there is a 50/50 chance of getting my hair back or it not growing back at all. All I could think is why me? He put me on a steroid and he wanted to see me 6 weeks later hoping to see a improvement. He also told me that my hair might grow back on the steroid but there is also a chance that once he toke me off it I would go through it all over again. Well I went back to him 10 days ago hoping and praying that there was improvement but I also had a feeling that I was going to get some really bad news. He looked at me and looked over my scalp. He put his head down and right there I knew. He told me that there was been no improvements. He told me that he was going to keep me on the steroid and see if there was any improvements in another 6 weeks. I really dont know what to do. I feel like every where I go people talk. I just want to walk outside without a hat on and not have to worry about someone looking at me weird or pick on me. People tell me everyday that I am beautiful with or without hair but I dont believe it. I wish I could have my hair back. I sent a application to a program called locks of love. I am waiting to see if I get approved. How do I get over this fear of people making fun of me and the fear of going out in the public without a hat on. Please give me some advise and help me understand why I feel like this.
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