And i admit it...I was fighting this 1.5 years now,not to believe it,not to let it get in my head,but everything is clear now..
Being bald makes you ugly,makes you look different,makes you weak in the society.
And i got proofs...I am 25 years old.I never had any issues with my looks.Always had pretty girls running after me,always had many doors open by many people,always was facing smiles,wtv i was doing,either it was bad or good.In fact,i was so confident,that most of the time i would see myself being rude and bossy,treating my gfs not so well and hurting them,but still they would come back to me.It`s weird,being rude on boys,i was just earning respect from em around.I thought i just had a great personality..But i was wrong..I was just a tall manly guy,with dark characteristics...Girls were flirting with me all the time and guys wanted to hang out...
All these back then seemed to be a pretty normal life for me..
Until i hit 22.There started the downfall..First i started loosing my hairline,very aggressively,became nw1.5-nw2.5 in just a year.My forehead started getting bigger and shiny,The temples were looking weirdhole face changed.I started receiving comments that i am loosing my hair big time.Still though,things were not that bad..I still had a cute face,with a nice beard and with the right hair-style i could fool em all that i am a nw2.I started getting less attention from the girls though,still was getting puss*y,but not that often.Guys i was meeeting for first time were less interested to hang out with me.I was asking myself:`Whats wrong?My face looks exactly the same with 1 year ago,my smile is the same,my behavior is the same,my confidence is the same,my jokes,everything,i havent changed a bit..Could it be the hair?? NAHHHH, no way!
And continued living my life(not with the same feeling that i had though before the hairloss,the feeling that you could f4ck the world),but as a normal person..
So i getting in a relationship,23 years old.My ex was looking like an angel.She was the one who approached me first,telling me that she was very attracted to me and the way i look.The first 6 months,everything was perfect,so much passion,so much sex,even our fights were great,bringing us always closer.She couldnt stop telling me how sexy i look with that hairstyle,how jealous she was,cause i had other girls hitting on me at work,telling me that she loves me so much that she was skipping heartbeats.
Then,another massive aggressive hairloss wave is coming to hit me.I was loosing hair like crazy.She first noticed cause we were spending so much time toherther and you know...She was like:`wow babe,you have a bald spot`,smiling.She didnt say it in a bad way.She kissed me after and said:I don`t mind though,i love you.That comment freaked me out..The girl that always compliments me and thinks i am a god,just found a weakness..The worst weakness someone can have maybe..I go to check at the mirror with a second mirror my back of my head...Yep...it was looking like a burger with no hair...
Short story long,i couldn`t show that i am freaked out..She had a picture of me strong,big,confident.I couldnt let myself show weak,although i was feeling like that..So i kept acting exactly the same..Soon though in a few months,sex activity between us started becoming less and less...I wanted more sex and she wanted less(in the beginning it was the opposite)!Complimets became less,untill the stopped for ever.Fights didn have happy ends anymore..I was the one who was feeling weak and was trying to be the (good guy in the relationship),because i was afraid not to lose her.In the end we broke up,she told me that she wants to be single and free,after 2 years of relationship...In the beginning she was asking me what would the name of our child be.....
I got into depression,until one day i say to myself,hey,youre still good looking,go out,flirt,get a job and so i did!
I couldnt get any girls though..My pick-up lines were not working anymore!My smile wasn`t making other guys want to hang out with me all time anymore..
At work there is almost zero respect...I start receving jokes about my head.Getting less attention from everyone,specially girls.Everyone thinks i am 30 yrs old and ask me if i am married..
I am not in the mood to go out anymore,how can i smile so easy from now on?How can i go swimming without feeling bad anymore.There are not people boosting my confidence anymore(and dont tell me that all these is bs and you just need to be healthy and confident and blah blah blah because whoever says that,must be a Norwood.2 or something..Me too,20 years old i thought i could f4ck the world)
WHAT CHANGED??IT CANT BE!I AM A BETTER PERSON NOW,NOT RUDE ANYMORE(i dont feel confident to be rude anymore).ALWAYS TRYING TO HELP OTHERS AND ALWAYS SMILING..I AM GOING TO THE GYM NOW..I AM BIG AND GOT MUSCLES.MY SKIN LOOKS HEALTHIER,I GOT A NICE CAR!!WHATS WRONG?
Today i am 25 years old and Norwood 3.5-4.
Everything,all this downfall,makes sense now...
It wasnt all in my head(like my mom says
)
Being bald makes you ugly,makes you look different,makes you weak in the society.
And i got proofs...I am 25 years old.I never had any issues with my looks.Always had pretty girls running after me,always had many doors open by many people,always was facing smiles,wtv i was doing,either it was bad or good.In fact,i was so confident,that most of the time i would see myself being rude and bossy,treating my gfs not so well and hurting them,but still they would come back to me.It`s weird,being rude on boys,i was just earning respect from em around.I thought i just had a great personality..But i was wrong..I was just a tall manly guy,with dark characteristics...Girls were flirting with me all the time and guys wanted to hang out...
All these back then seemed to be a pretty normal life for me..
Until i hit 22.There started the downfall..First i started loosing my hairline,very aggressively,became nw1.5-nw2.5 in just a year.My forehead started getting bigger and shiny,The temples were looking weirdhole face changed.I started receiving comments that i am loosing my hair big time.Still though,things were not that bad..I still had a cute face,with a nice beard and with the right hair-style i could fool em all that i am a nw2.I started getting less attention from the girls though,still was getting puss*y,but not that often.Guys i was meeeting for first time were less interested to hang out with me.I was asking myself:`Whats wrong?My face looks exactly the same with 1 year ago,my smile is the same,my behavior is the same,my confidence is the same,my jokes,everything,i havent changed a bit..Could it be the hair?? NAHHHH, no way!
And continued living my life(not with the same feeling that i had though before the hairloss,the feeling that you could f4ck the world),but as a normal person..
So i getting in a relationship,23 years old.My ex was looking like an angel.She was the one who approached me first,telling me that she was very attracted to me and the way i look.The first 6 months,everything was perfect,so much passion,so much sex,even our fights were great,bringing us always closer.She couldnt stop telling me how sexy i look with that hairstyle,how jealous she was,cause i had other girls hitting on me at work,telling me that she loves me so much that she was skipping heartbeats.
Then,another massive aggressive hairloss wave is coming to hit me.I was loosing hair like crazy.She first noticed cause we were spending so much time toherther and you know...She was like:`wow babe,you have a bald spot`,smiling.She didnt say it in a bad way.She kissed me after and said:I don`t mind though,i love you.That comment freaked me out..The girl that always compliments me and thinks i am a god,just found a weakness..The worst weakness someone can have maybe..I go to check at the mirror with a second mirror my back of my head...Yep...it was looking like a burger with no hair...
Short story long,i couldn`t show that i am freaked out..She had a picture of me strong,big,confident.I couldnt let myself show weak,although i was feeling like that..So i kept acting exactly the same..Soon though in a few months,sex activity between us started becoming less and less...I wanted more sex and she wanted less(in the beginning it was the opposite)!Complimets became less,untill the stopped for ever.Fights didn have happy ends anymore..I was the one who was feeling weak and was trying to be the (good guy in the relationship),because i was afraid not to lose her.In the end we broke up,she told me that she wants to be single and free,after 2 years of relationship...In the beginning she was asking me what would the name of our child be.....
I got into depression,until one day i say to myself,hey,youre still good looking,go out,flirt,get a job and so i did!
I couldnt get any girls though..My pick-up lines were not working anymore!My smile wasn`t making other guys want to hang out with me all time anymore..
At work there is almost zero respect...I start receving jokes about my head.Getting less attention from everyone,specially girls.Everyone thinks i am 30 yrs old and ask me if i am married..
I am not in the mood to go out anymore,how can i smile so easy from now on?How can i go swimming without feeling bad anymore.There are not people boosting my confidence anymore(and dont tell me that all these is bs and you just need to be healthy and confident and blah blah blah because whoever says that,must be a Norwood.2 or something..Me too,20 years old i thought i could f4ck the world)
WHAT CHANGED??IT CANT BE!I AM A BETTER PERSON NOW,NOT RUDE ANYMORE(i dont feel confident to be rude anymore).ALWAYS TRYING TO HELP OTHERS AND ALWAYS SMILING..I AM GOING TO THE GYM NOW..I AM BIG AND GOT MUSCLES.MY SKIN LOOKS HEALTHIER,I GOT A NICE CAR!!WHATS WRONG?
Today i am 25 years old and Norwood 3.5-4.
Everything,all this downfall,makes sense now...
It wasnt all in my head(like my mom says
)
