- Reaction score
- 528
I wanted to shave my head and my parents started to gaslight me saying that I am not losing my hair at all, that I am obsessed about it, that I am mad for wanting to shave my beautiful hair. I think parents especially do not want to face the reality of their balding children, that it not only occurs, but sometimes it occurs so fast and so sudden that they are not ready to face that balding. Seeing me in long wispy hair with red spots everywhere made me look insane and with it I almost lost my mind (hence my psychotic posts) because I felt I will never look like me again, I felt pure disgust at myself. The fact that I was not allowed to shave it in the past contributed to use of alcohol in excess and total depression because I was told I will look horribly bald. I felt like my parents would rather see me sporting a long NW6 horseshoe (social suicide 100%) rather than let me shave it and even if I am looking worse now, at least my psycjotic rage about my hair is no more. It's like a miracle, suddenly I feel like I am alive again and am ready to start anew, with embraced identity as a bald person.