Thinking Of Commiting Suicide, My Thoughts

dralex

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If I ever got to the point where "everything was a dead end" because of my appearance? I would simply start taking steroids and take all the focus away from my face and head. I would be responsible about it, and educate myself on the damage done by taking them wrong, and the safest ways to do it, but rather than die, I would become a *beast* .

Think about all the guys who have incredibly hot girls because they are beasts, and then picture that same guy skinny - with that face. 80% of the guys who are beasts are beasts because they are ugly as hell. And when they get big, nobody cares. People only notice the incredible body and masculinity. Women are very attracted to that.

So instead of suicide, I would simply get jacked as hell. And do my best not to damage my organs with illegal steroids, but accomplish the goal as responsibly as possible. If the alternative is being dead, then why wouldn't you just go this route instead?

99% chance of being desired by women again, even if you're ugly as hell.
If my hair loss situation keeps getting worse I am probably going to start a cycle. I would obviously do a ton of research, but I feel like it would boost my confidence a sh*t ton. My close buddy has been on 3 cycles and says he feels absolutely amazing while on roids. Also the extra muscle, and lower bodyfat as result helps. Main reason I wouldn't take steroids is it speeds up hair loss, so if I can't stop the hair loss, why not? And if people ever mention how I am balding so young, I can just say, yeah cuz I am taking steroids. Makes it seem like the steroids are causing the hair loss, and you don't give a f**k.
 

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Life's a b**ch, innit :)

So here's the deal, I am almost 30 now, have been loosing my hair for the past 5 years quite rapidly (I mean going from full head to nw3/4 in about 4 years and still progressing) In a diffuse thinner patter which is somehow even worse.

I am the type that looks great with hair and horrible without it (pretty big nose and a flat top of head). I used to be very fit (now I just dont care anymore) used to go out almost every night and score, now just sit in my apartment because I am ugly and life is unfair overall (hey :D)

Its been pretty good for me in the past.And you know what, its the contrast that kills you.
I've seen two groups of guys who can cope with it:
- the ones who weren't that good looking to begin with, and hair did almost nothing for them (sorry fellas)
- the ones who still look decent when shaved (oh the lucky ones)

I tried meds for a while, gave me nothing but eye bags and puffy nipples.

Once you go from handsome to ugly you really get a perspective on things. And its not a good one, you can try to justify things to yourself, but if you are completely honest - there is no point of denying that you have been dealt sh*t. And you would easily exchange that for things that other people call "sh*t" (god damn I would swap for your sh*t in a heartbeat!)

I don't know, is there really much point to it? Are there any ugly bald guys around to prove me wrong that life isn't just gonna suck from now on?

This is not a cry for attention, I treat my situation quite humorously now because I have been depressed for a while. I just really would like to hear from the likes of me (not good looking bald people) and if they managed to get over it.
I have found an organisation that can help one end his life with via a European euthanasia program. As I am scared of pain, not death itself, as most of us are, it seems like a pretty good option right now, what do you think?


Want a female perspective?

Why dont you try plastic surgery to 'tweak' what you think can be tweaked..you said your nose looks big without hair? get a nose job.

As for body--its always great to get in shape get fit--Peronally> i always went for body over hair even face sometimes..I mean not 'ugly' but if a guy is plain or average and no hair and he's got a fit body--well 'Hello"
Also believe it or not clothes make a difference too. I mean women have different styles they like some are jeans and T shirt and some are Suit and Tie or causal dressed etc--whatever is your comfort zone make it sharp, well tailored..Im sure some of these guys know what i mean...

I think it can be harder for men to get into fashion than women but it really helps make a guy look attractive. And you dont have to spend a load of money to do this--its more bout tailoring and fit.

what kind of work do you do?
Your entering your 30s THIS alone will make it easier for you with women in regards to your hair as opposed to 20s
20s is about fast fun even if your in a relationship its like play time
In 30s (most) people start to get more serious women dont look at 'just' looks with men
They start thinking about marriage etc...women that want to get married and have kids in late 20s their clock starts ticking (mine never went on for some reason lol) anyway I watched my good looking girlfriends go from really HOT men to more stable men who were not so hot but 'good marriage material' even if they never got married.
So like in 20s a hot girl may be like going out with a guy still living at home not really working much etc
In late 20s early 30? that changes dramatically and they want a man who has his own place, independent steady job etc.

You know what i mean? Attraction is important but other things start to become more attractive. (i dont mean gold diggers)
 

hairblues

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LET ME JUST AMEND--if you do get plastic surgery--be very careful about DR you pick dont skimp mens nose jobs have to be really good or they look to feminine. so do research if you go this route and dont change it just refine it a little.

I mean and this is only if your serious with how bad you feel--I Dont think you 'need' one. but maybe it will lift you.
 
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I agree with Hairblues in the sense that looks play a diminishing importance as we age.

Plus, some people are weird. I've dated 'ugly' women because they were highly intelligent and great to talk to. I went out with an overweight, late thirties lecturer a couple of years ago and I was completely into her because she could hold a very deep conversation for a long time. Sometimes after sex we'd end up talking until the sun rose.

Anyway, the point I make is that there is still hope yet, your life is not over and you can still have healthy sexual relationships.
 
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