Today I Thought About Killing Myself

[shookwun]

I remember working in a kitchen, and some guy asked my age. We spoke, and then what stuck out was him saying 'the best times are already behind you'

Looking back, he was right.

Especially 12-22 before I hit 'real adult life'

maybe my perspective will change when I buy a house, and move back home. Commute, back and fourth for work. As for now, I still stand at my point being the best times are behind. A lot of old heads go on about this age just a number balogny. Yeah, getting old, wrinkled and loosing your youth is so much fun! it's a different type of fun I guess.

No more having unprotected sex with 18 year olds in there dorm room during frosh week
Meeting chicks at frat houses
having huge social groups, and always seeing different people
Going to huge house parties, keggers and theme styled events

Bla bla

 

[ozm8ey]

I thought about doing it before i started losing my hair due to mental issues, but you need to remember, in order to feel relief, you need to be alive, if you kill yourself, you can't feel relief

 

[resu]

Best years are 12-25, after that its sh*t.

people can cope all they want, but all those awesome house parties, college/university fun, and constantly meeting tons of people ENDS.

Sure you have fun afterwards, but it's not the same.


During 16-23 I was going to parties every weekend, constantly getting invitations to pot lucks, edm events and such.


Every1 is hitting the real world nowdays. it's sh*t, and mediocre at best.


Everyone starts to go seperate ways, and you entire adult-crap.

That's true but for me anxiety and frustration levels were so high during that period that I prefer the later mellow years, if only I didn't have hair loss then the apathy that replaced anxiety and frustration wouldn't be eating me.

The best years were not age related but time related, everything past 1997 is utter sh*t, when broadband arrived in 2000 till around 2004-05 it was the last hurrah before society collapsed.

 

[Aleksa97]

I remember working in a kitchen, and some guy asked my age. We spoke, and then what stuck out was him saying 'the best times are already behind you'

Looking back, he was right.

Especially 12-22 before I hit 'real adult life'

maybe my perspective will change when I buy a house, and move back home. Commute, back and fourth for work. As for now, I still stand at my point being the best times are behind. A lot of old heads go on about this age just a number balogny. Yeah, getting old, wrinkled and loosing your youth is so much fun! it's a different type of fun I guess.

No more having unprotected sex with 18 year olds in there dorm room during frosh week
Meeting chicks at frat houses
having huge social groups, and always seeing different people
Going to huge house parties, keggers and theme styled events

Bla bla

Exactly. And I am wasting my time thinking about this hairloss sh*t. While everyone is in the club I go to the toilet every 20 min to check how my hair looks. It has became a f*****g obsession. You are right. Best years of my life are passing by and I am doing nothing. I think I will visit one of those therapists. Just to relieve my mind. I think that that would be a good idea. Hairloss is a f*****g curse.

 

[jaydee1]

I am so sad. This sh*t is destroying my life. It is eating me from the inside. I mean, when I am out with my friends I am ok, but as soon as I am alone I remember how fcking my hair bad is at 19. I really can't take it anymore. All I can think of is hairloss I f*****g stare at peoples hairlines all the time and examine what Norwood are they. Its f*****g pathetic. I am wasting so much time stressing about my hair which only makes it worse. This curse destroys you from the inside. I am so miserable, angry on everyone for no f*****g reason its just so pathetic I can't even explain it. And I realise that. But I can't do sh*t about it. One day I'm like okay today I won't think about my hair but as soon as I pass and see my reflection on some glass I become stressed again. I avoid mirrors in my home so I don't need to look at myself. I am slowly but surely falling into depression and it is just getting worse. I just want it to stop.

I am sorry you feel that way. Please try some options that work, like the big 3 or my option which has worked for almost 50 years. Wash you hair every single day, never go to bed with a greasy

 

[jaydee1]

I am so sad. This sh*t is destroying my life. It is eating me from the inside. I mean, when I am out with my friends I am ok, but as soon as I am alone I remember how fcking my hair bad is at 19. I really can't take it anymore. All I can think of is hairloss I f*****g stare at peoples hairlines all the time and examine what Norwood are they. Its f*****g pathetic. I am wasting so much time stressing about my hair which only makes it worse. This curse destroys you from the inside. I am so miserable, angry on everyone for no f*****g reason its just so pathetic I can't even explain it. And I realise that. But I can't do sh*t about it. One day I'm like okay today I won't think about my hair but as soon as I pass and see my reflection on some glass I become stressed again. I avoid mirrors in my home so I don't need to look at myself. I am slowly but surely falling into depression and it is just getting worse. I just want it to stop.

wash you hair every day, use hydrocortisone over the counter a few times a week and use aveeno in the evening if you don't want to use the big 3, otherwise use my suggestion which has helped for 50 years.

 

[paxis]

Best years are 12-25, after that its sh*t.

people can cope all they want, but all those awesome house parties, college/university fun, and constantly meeting tons of people ENDS.

Sure you have fun afterwards, but it's not the same.

I am 21 now and I never felt the urge to go party hard and actually never did. Also shitload of friends are not needed (for me not even wanted), having 3-5 decent friends you can talk with is more than enough.

What I want most is a caring and loving wife I can spend the rest of my life with. In my age most of them are still dumb af tho. Such as men too. And if you are balding you have a bad first impression to almost every girl in this world. Also your confidence gets fucked up.

So I guess opinions split here. Early childhood was definetly awesome tho. When the memories kick in an you just miss your time at school.

 

[Yoshi3Mario]

Thank you all on words of encouregment. I will surely look into finasteride. Do you have any advice on how to get my mind off hairloss? That is my beggiest issue besides hairloss itself. The fact that I am thinking about my hair 90% percent of the day.

I started finasteride at 18. Seriously it's fine whether you take it or don't. I recommend finding a hobby that gives you a thrill. A zest for life. Examples are: rock climbing, mountain biking, downhill skiing etc. don't worry about going bald so much . If you do get in finasteride you will lose hair before you start growing it back. I primed at around 5 years on finasteride. I took it for 8.5 years and then realized my other friends were balding and that I wanted to see what it would be like to quit. I quit and liked the changes so I stayed quit.

If I were 18, and losing my hair, I wouldn't probably take finasteride again. But I wouldn't take minoxidil. Hate that stuff.

Don't worry about Fred's Gyno comment. My chest never grew on the drug. After I quit I drank lots of hoppy beer and didn't exercise abandoned got a slightly fatty chest. Lost weight and gyno is gone. Very little risk with gyno. You're 18 so you have an enourmous sex drive so very little to worry about there. It's mostly guys in their 30s that get the sexual sides.

 

[GoldenMane]

My teens were sh*t. Early 20s were sh*t with 2 years being ok, losing hair and in denial here. Late 20s started treatment, too late for a full recovery, life got a bit better but struggling with hair loss anxiety. If it was t for hair loss my late 20s/early 30s would be pretty good. Hoping that one more hair transplant and Tsuji/Shiseido can make my 30s and 40s pretty good.

 

[Yoshi3Mario]

You can't solve a real case of gynecomastia by simply losing weight.

If only. I dropped to 70 kg for 1m90 and the gyno was still there.

You should never play with fire when it comes to this side-effect.

When you get it, you'll understand that there are worse things than hair loss.

But not really, since it can be solved so easily, but still, the psychological impact is worse.

Yeah but you didn't get gyno from finasteride.
you did have real gyno. And weight loss wasn't going to get rid of it. But there has never been that type of glandular gyno caused from finasteride.

 

[Aleksa97]

I started finasteride at 18. Seriously it's fine whether you take it or don't. I recommend finding a hobby that gives you a thrill. A zest for life. Examples are: rock climbing, mountain biking, downhill skiing etc. don't worry about going bald so much . If you do get in finasteride you will lose hair before you start growing it back. I primed at around 5 years on finasteride. I took it for 8.5 years and then realized my other friends were balding and that I wanted to see what it would be like to quit. I quit and liked the changes so I stayed quit.

If I were 18, and losing my hair, I wouldn't probably take finasteride again. But I wouldn't take minoxidil. Hate that stuff.

Don't worry about Fred's Gyno comment. My chest never grew on the drug. After I quit I drank lots of hoppy beer and didn't exercise abandoned got a slightly fatty chest. Lost weight and gyno is gone. Very little risk with gyno. You're 18 so you have an enourmous sex drive so very little to worry about there. It's mostly guys in their 30s that get the sexual sides.

Why do you hate minoxidil? I am on it for 1 month currently and your words make me question taking it

 

[Feelsbadman]

Past-puberty life is sh*t for 90% of people.

Right in the feels.

 

[shookwun]

You can't solve a real case of gynecomastia by simply losing weight.

If only. I dropped to 70 kg for 1m90 and the gyno was still there.

You should never play with fire when it comes to this side-effect.

When you get it, you'll understand that there are worse things than hair loss.

But not really, since it can be solved so easily, but still, the psychological impact is worse.

correct.

he never had gyno, just was fat so it looked like he had tits.



Gyno is rubbery around the areola, and most commonly has a painful lump underneath.

Surgery is the only way to get rid of it. I had it also......due to being an idiot with steroids on my first cycle. Decided I didn't need an a.i while on finasteride.

 

[Yoshi3Mario]

Why do you hate minoxidil? I am on it for 1 month currently and your words make me question taking it

I have very sensitive thin skin, and in the winter especially it gets dry and so I had a huge over absorption problem with this drug. I tried foam and the drops but had issues with both.

1) chest pain. couldn't do cardio, got pains in my chest every time i tried to go for a run.
2) left stains on my pillows.
3) drops caused itching and irritation. i think i still have red marks in my skin from this stuff.
4) gave me a sense of confusion (brain fog). probably related to the medication working as its blood pressure dropping roots. due to over absorption.

it didn't regrew hair.. it just helped me keep the hair i had. finasteride i think at least actually reversed the process. it may be long and slow for it to take effect but it definitely worked as a hair loss drug. i just didn't want to mess with my hormones anymore and when i quit i noticed improvement changes as discussed above and stayed quit. as i lost more and more hair, i became desperate again and thought about taking the drugs over and over but in the end stayed quit and went bald.