Good advice, JesusFreak.
Gunner, your thinking is not rational. I don't mean to sound like an a**h**, I am trying to be blunt and honest and shake some sense into you.
You are not thinking straight. I hope you realize that although we all complain about our hairloss here, you are taking it to a completely inappropriate level and you are sounding very scary. Your thoughts about your hairloss are way too overwhelming, you do not sound healthy and you really need to talk to someone about it.
I heard what you said about your parents and I agree with you on that. What they said to you seemed to be bullshit, 100% bullshit. You need to talk to someone who can speak with you honestly about your hairloss and about how to deal with it in a healthy way. It is NOT the end of the world, despite the fact that, YES, you are very obviously receeding and thinning, you have a lot of hair left and you are a healthy looking and obviously very intelligent guy. You have a terrible perspective on your hairloss, it's not right to think as you are, it is unhealthy and I really think you should consult someone. This message board is a good start. But if you keep thinking like you are, it becomes habit, and soon starts snowballing into an endless cycle of self-pity which is hard to get out of.
Sorry to sound like an a**h**, I am not trying to be one. I am just someone who is calling it like I see it, and I know you can get to the point where you will feel better, more adjusted, and more positive about your hiar and your treatments.
I went through something similar, not quite as bad, but bad enough to make me go out and get a hairpiece for several months, which was one of the worst decisions of my life. My experience with my hairpiece, the secretiveness, etc, really taught me an INVALUABLE lesson about hairloss and vanity, and about insecurity. I learned it the hard way, but now I see my hairloss in a completely different light. Yes I hate it, but I have to keep on being the best person I can be and I have learned that a positive attitude is far more attractive to a woman in particular and society in general than to sit in the cave and be ashamed. Worst of all, the worst of the damage of being a cave-sitter is the damage you do to yourself.
Get out there. I think you will find people much more accepting of your hairloss than you are.
I hope I didn't offend you. I am just being honest, and hope that if I ever get down, you would do the same for me. Take care, bud, and PM me anytime you ever want to talk.