life's so f*****g meaningless as a 5'6 bald guy but my inhibitions are way too high to really do anything
Don't do it exodus, unless you are truly comfortable living as an androgynous / feminine man.
Do me a favor and go look up a guy on YouTube called PsychedSubstance. He also operates another channel called SWIM.
He's delusional about what caused his hair loss, but otherwise his story isn't all that different from yours in that his hair loss started early on, his hair was like a big part of his identity, he's on the shorter side, and he was bald enough to where he had to shave his head in his early 20s. I'm not saying this is a great idea or anything but he started working on his physique and then eventually started going out to bars and to music festivals and sh*t while rolling on molly and just started talking to and getting rejected by random girls until he got to the point where he was comfortable making new friends and just talking to people. A few years later he's got a wife that is good to him and decently hot, plus a few kids (not a bonus in my opinion but to each their own, idk what you want for your life with that). Like honestly getting yourself out there no matter how you do it is gonna be life changing for you
My whole life changed when I started transitioning and I was sort of forced out of my comfort zone, yeah I had really good regrowth but the much bigger factor in my shift in perspective was that I did a sh*t load of psychedelics and really looked inwards and just started putting myself out there. Like for a long time because of me being trans (and a receded hairline trans at that) I thought I'd be forever alone lol but life isn't that simple.
I'm not trying to come off like one of those "just hit the gym brah" people especially since I have recovered so much that it feels like maybe not my place to give this sort of advice. I'm aware that I'm speaking from a place of privilege, but... There's actually studies that show MDMA can help with PTSD and that magic mushrooms / ketamine have lasting antidepressant effects which are more effective than typical SSRI medications and have immediate results.
Rather see you potentially have a bad trip or no results (and waste like $40 in the process i guess) than start popping titty pills in a vain attempt to fix your mental space when the solution may be a lot simpler