It's all over now...

[ghg]

Dramatic title for the topic, but I think it deserved one. My hair is in horrible condition, it's really dry and brittle and it has never looked so dull. I don't know what the hell has happened, I was doing ok for the past 3 years and hairloss has been steady but kinda slow. First I thought (and still probably do) that it was the MSM powder that I used from January until 2 weeks ago that made my hair this way, but now I'm not so sure. My twin brother's balding and hair quality seem to show the same symptoms as mine, so I really don't know if it was the MSM or not or has the balding just stepped up a gear. All I know is that I'm thoroughly fucked now psychologically, all new low.

I work in a shitty job to get some money and I just made an agreement that I will stay there until September, but I really don't know if I can hold my sh*t together for that long if this situation continues. I'm forced to start taking my hair down to #0 every 2 weeks, I can't stand the sight of it grown out like this. Also my skin is much drier than it was pre-MSM and scalp itches badly for the first time in over 2 years. And oh yeah, my hair is dry and brittle all around, not just on the balding area (NW5). It just looks extra bad on the thinning area... so it's all over now for me, grade #0 here I come! f*** this sh*t called life, I mean really, I hate it and I still have suicidal thoughts. It's not nice to admit that I might end up hurting myself, but I do look like a f*****g idiot without hair and don't know how I can find some new perspective towards life. I'm a loser. 28 yrs old and bald.

P.S. Before anyone advices me to seek help, I've already done that... thinking about trying anti-depressants for the first time in my life.

 

[Obsidian]

I am sorry to hear you are in such a tough part of life right now but try to find the silver lining.

Be glad you even have a job, I know many friends who are unemployed who would gladly take your position because the longer they are out of work, the harder it is to get a job.

Have you considered looking for another job while in this one?

Things will get better.

If you are legitimately considering hurting yourself, please get help somewhere. Suicide just destroys the people you love because then they think they are the reason you did it.

I had to attend a funeral in February for a former band-mate and no one was commenting on his obvious NW3V position but instead how he could leave behind his pregnant fiance like that.

 

[Michael84]

Man, just know that all your problems are not forever, they will end in about 40 years. There is no baldness on the otherside. And for now, just except the fact that life is sh*t and you have just to wait some time for it to end. Meanwhile, don't bother yourself by suicidal thoughts and try to find something positive.

 

[elliotramsey]

Man, just know that all your problems are not forever, they will end in about 40 years. There is no baldness on the otherside. And for now, just except the fact that life is sh*t and you have just to wait some time for it to end. Meanwhile, don't bother yourself by suicidal thoughts and try to find something positive.

That doesn't mean that you can't make the best of life. If you think that life is sh*t then, well, it most likely will be. If life isn't what you want it to be, then think about what you did to make it like that, then change it. Theres somethings you don't have control of, hair loss is not going to make everyone hate you, unless you let it.

 

[jm72482]

what a cry baby...

 

[ghg]

what a cry baby...

Yeah, you're right. I'm a cry baby.

Man, just know that all your problems are not forever, they will end in about 40 years. There is no baldness on the otherside. And for now, just except the fact that life is sh*t and you have just to wait some time for it to end. Meanwhile, don't bother yourself by suicidal thoughts and try to find something positive.

That doesn't mean that you can't make the best of life. If you think that life is sh*t then, well, it most likely will be. If life isn't what you want it to be, then think about what you did to make it like that, then change it. Theres somethings you don't have control of, hair loss is not going to make everyone hate you, unless you let it.

You're right too. Of course I know that it's all in my head, it's me who can't stand being bald, can't take the jokes etc that come with it, and hate the way I look bald. I'm not probably any balder now that I was, say, 2 months ago, but the quality of my hair has decreased drastically and I have no f*****g idea what to do to make it better again. I don't know if it was the winter air that made my hair like this (hasn't done it before and winters are always cold here) or if it was some external reason (haven't changed my diet, haven't changed shampooing habits, haven't changed any supplements except the MSM). So... I'm kinda helpless here and the hair looks so frigging bad grown like this... lifeless and lump and feels "static". My hands have also felt "static" and "slippery" since the MSM.

 

[s.a.f]

Pics or I dont believe a word of it. :whistle:

 

[ghg]

Pics or I dont believe a word of it. :whistle:

Luckily I don't care. There's no way I'm going to take pictures of this mess in my current mental state. It can only get worse by doing that. I can post some if it does return to normal...

 

[cuebald]

Thing is a few months ago you were a solid NW1...

 

[ghg]

Thing is a few months ago you were a solid NW1...

What the hell? Oh yeah, I'm a NW1... but I'm a diffuse thinner. Don't know if you can call that solid. I've been thinking about saving for FUE but now that I've studied the subject a bit I don't think it's worth it. I'd need at least 6000 grafts for it to look anything and I don't even know if I have that much donor hair to spare...

 

[elliotramsey]

Have you tried Tom Hagerty's scalp exercise? If anything people have said that it improves the quality of hair and possibly halts hair loss. It takes many months, but worth it once you get going.

 

[Ori83]

Scrolling your pictures it seems you never had any hair loss to begin with, put some pictures if you wish to win sympathy and regain credibility...

 

[s.a.f]

He was making posts like this 4 yrs ago. I'm betting that no one outside of this sight could even spot any signs of m.p.b on him even if they were looking for it.

 

[ghg]

He was making posts like this 4 yrs ago. I'm betting that no one outside of this sight could even spot any signs of m.p.b on him even if they were looking for it.

But hey, of course I'm not balding. I just love to hang around places like this forum! I don't have shitloads of dandruff either...

 

[s.a.f]

Yeah because we've never had people on here who claim to be balding but have no hairloss whatso ever.

 

[ghg]

I really don't know what your problem is. You've been bugging me ever since I arrived here and despite the numerous pics I have posted that have clearly showed my diffuse thinning, you still keep spewing this sh*t about how I'm not balding and have a full head of hair etc. I just can't get it.

 

[s.a.f]

Because despite being one of the biggest whiners on the site I've yet to see any pics that show any clear hairloss.

 

[ghg]

Because despite being one of the biggest whiners on the site I've yet to see any pics that show any clear hairloss.

You're so delusional it's beyond me. I've posted numerous pics that show a lot of clear hairloss. Most people have admitted that, especially those who are diffuse thinners themselves and therefore experts on the subject. Besides those pics were taken years ago and I've not gotten any better since, quite the opposite. Now I have this huge dandruff issue to deal with, last time I had severe dandruff was years ago so this is quite the b**ch. I thought I had gotten rid of dandruff for good.

 

[s.a.f]

I'm delusional !!??
Take a look at this guy viewtopic.php?f=11&t=64727
Here's a young guy with real hairloss at 21 (you must be about 30 now) and he's not bitching about it if your hair is anything like that then I apologise fully. But I know for a fact from your previous whining that it is going to be nothing like that. And just look back on this thread where are the people agreeing with you? There are others just a few posts back who say you dont appear to have any hairloss.
Searched your posts looking for your pics after 5 mins looking at 100's of other peoples posts telling you that you are'nt bald I actually found them.

viewtopic.php?f=41&t=47058&st=0&sk=t&sd=a&hilit=pics

Wow you're a real larry david!!

Its totally normal to be able to see some scalp through short hair BTW.

 

[ghg]

And you're one of the most unpleasant assholes I've ever come across even on the Internet. A real bully. I don't have to prove anything to you so just piss off from this thread. I, like many others who are balding, am looking for support from this site and you're not giving any.