Thinking Of Commiting Suicide, My Thoughts

[sals]

Life's a b**ch, innit

So here's the deal, I am almost 30 now, have been loosing my hair for the past 5 years quite rapidly (I mean going from full head to nw3/4 in about 4 years and still progressing) In a diffuse thinner patter which is somehow even worse.

I am the type that looks great with hair and horrible without it (pretty big nose and a flat top of head). I used to be very fit (now I just dont care anymore) used to go out almost every night and score, now just sit in my apartment because I am ugly and life is unfair overall (hey )

Its been pretty good for me in the past.And you know what, its the contrast that kills you.
I've seen two groups of guys who can cope with it:
- the ones who weren't that good looking to begin with, and hair did almost nothing for them (sorry fellas)
- the ones who still look decent when shaved (oh the lucky ones)

I tried meds for a while, gave me nothing but eye bags and puffy nipples.

Once you go from handsome to ugly you really get a perspective on things. And its not a good one, you can try to justify things to yourself, but if you are completely honest - there is no point of denying that you have been dealt sh*t. And you would easily exchange that for things that other people call "sh*t" (god damn I would swap for your sh*t in a heartbeat!)

I don't know, is there really much point to it? Are there any ugly bald guys around to prove me wrong that life isn't just gonna suck from now on?

This is not a cry for attention, I treat my situation quite humorously now because I have been depressed for a while. I just really would like to hear from the likes of me (not good looking bald people) and if they managed to get over it.
I have found an organisation that can help one end his life with via a European euthanasia program. As I am scared of pain, not death itself, as most of us are, it seems like a pretty good option right now, what do you think?

 

[whatevr]

Once you get to that point where life is far more of a pain than a pleasure, what good reason is there to keep enduring that pain?

That point is different for everyone. Only you can know when you've reached it.

If you truly feel like there's nothing that can help you anymore, then the only thing I can say is that I wish you a painless way out and hope you find peace in the afterlife (or lack of).

 

[sals]

Wow! Honestly, just wow.. That is absolutely THE BEST thing that I've heard in the past years. I wish I posted earlier.

 

[GoldenMane]

Get SMP with a low density hair transplant, look like the guy who buzzes his head rather than the bald guy.
Go all out on experimental like a couple of guys on here, deal with the side effects.
Get a hair system and wait 5-10 years for Replicel and the Tsuji treatment to restore you.
Or your idea, pack it in now because lif isn't fair and you got dealt a bad hand.

 

[SmoothSailing]

Would you not try everything and anything before considering suicide? Have you tried everything you can to become happy? Is there no possibility of you being happy every again?

If you rely solely on women for your happiness you're making a mistake, good-looking or not. There are many other reasons to live and there are likely many other things that can make you happy.

As you've said guys who were always ugly don't have as much trouble. Do you think these guys just live miserable lives? Or do you think they've learned to cope and have found other things that make them happy? Do you not think you could ever learn to cope? Things will never be like they were before but that doesn't mean they can't be good.

I'd ask that, even if you can't find the motivation to try and find other sources of happiness, you'd at least wait. In time the motivation will come and the pain will ease.

 

[N003]

Would you not try everything and anything before considering suicide? Have you tried everything you can to become happy? Is there no possibility of you being happy every again?

If you rely solely on women for your happiness you're making a mistake, good-looking or not. There are many other reasons to live and there are likely many other things that can make you happy.

Absolutely correct. Love your post.
There are so many other beautiful things in life as only women.

Yes women are a part of my life but for sure not the most important.
A man who can't live without a woman or a man who has just women in his brain is a sad guy.

There are 1000x more things in our planet which can give your peace and hapiness.
I have so many interests and hobbies which enriched my life.

True hair loss sucks but suicide because i have hair loss? NO WAY

 

[GoldenMane]

I'm not necessarily against suicide, it's my back up option for when everything goes tits up, but it's only something you should pursue after you've tried the other options.
Get some RU, try the prostaglandin protocol, take some estradiol, spironolacetone. You've got nothing to lose, may as well try everything.

 

[sals]

@whatevr, sorry for such an 'emotional' response (I feel weird now that I posted that), I just got too used to the 'empty' cheer-ups that normal people usually give you. Wasn't ready for such an honest and straight forward reply, it really made me happier, so thanks again.

@GoldenMane nice, but I dont know if I still wont be constantly thinking of how it used to be and my "real identity" that I got used to

@SmoothSailing its definitely not women for me, its mostly self image and how I interact with people and they interact with me. I feel sort of "grown out" of relationships, I had a few girlfriends in the past and even have been married briefly, I do not want kids anymore, as they don't fit the image that I had on my life anymore.
To answer your question - I will definitely wait some more, as it usually takes me ages to make important decisions anyways )) and see how it goes. I am not at the worst place in my life (as in I have a job and I am not looking for a relationship) But it really has not been getting any better for the past couple years.

 

[sals]

Sorry, posted before I saw the last two replies.

@N003 regarding women - I addressed that in previous post. I do have a few hobbies but that's just part of my "private" life, they don't affect my "public" life as much, and that's the one we live in most of the time.

@GoldenMane thanks, have not heard of those before, will look them up, but would really like to avoid hormonal stuff

 

[GoldenMane]

Messing with your hormones is a lot less extreme than suicide, may as well give it a go. If you get tits then have them surgically removed.

 

[tellersquill]

Completely agree with N003.

Your life has more value then whether you are pretty or ugly.

Do the things in which you are passionate about!

Find meaning to your life beyond being good looking and you will become far, far happier.

 

[resu]

Some people are living others are surviving. I think if the pain is unbearable you don't have other choice than to live far away from everyone else, change places and accept that now this is your life.

 

[sals]

@GoldenMane Is it though? As in if it makes me look like a dude with tits, will it actually be better in terms of emotional pain over time?
Shall we all be more open to suicide?
I have always been a very materialistic person. I see people every day that are living their lives and are obviously not as happy as I used to be. What if my goal in life was to be a very social person who gets on with people well and it has been going great for me until I lost my looks?

@tellersquill I have some hobbies, but we all have to deal with other people every now and they, don't we?

 

[sals]

@resu that seems like just prolonging the suffering, although I have been contemplating just living in my comfort zone forever, but I don't have that much money yet

 

[SmoothSailing]

I have some hobbies, but we all have to deal with other people every now and they, don't we?

Yes we do but most people don't consider killing themselves over it. Ugly or not.

What if my goal in life was to be a very social person who gets on with people well

This can be achieved even if you're ugly, it's harder though.

 

[tellersquill]

Do you think people only liked you for your looks?

I have tons of ugly friends. One is a NW4 and obese but he is a really gun guy to be around.

 

[Janekoman12]

Get a nose jobb chin implantat smp get fit and Go f*** b****s again

 

[chrisis]

It's absolutely terrible that some people on this forum are supporting the idea that someone should kill himself because he doesn't feel any value without his hair.

Sals, I really would encourage you to seek therapy. Lots of men live full and happy lives and don't necessarily have good looks. Age is a great equaliser too - no matter how attractive someone is, his days of looking that good are numbered. So what if some reach that earlier than others? You can still carve out a successful life by finding value and worth in other areas of life, like your work, hobbies etc. Don't let social conditioning dictate your life to the extent you consider it over based on some arbitrary factor.

I know you are concerned about your appearance, and as others have suggested, you do have options like SMP with FUE, or a decent hair system. I saw a guy with advanced Norwood on TV last night who got an amazing hair system and it seemed to give him a lot of happiness and confidence. Hopefully there are better treatments coming out in future too. Finally, I wouldn't suggest finasteride if you're already depressed and suicidal.

 

[chrisis]

Here's the link to the guy who had the hair system. If you're outside of the UK, you may need a workaround to watch: http://www.channel4.com/programmes/body-fixers/on-demand/62907-003

 

[Bigbone]

Get SMP with a low density hair transplant, look like the guy who buzzes his head rather than the bald guy.
Go all out on experimental like a couple of guys on here, deal with the side effects.
Get a hair system and wait 5-10 years for Replicel and the Tsuji treatment to restore you.
Or your idea, pack it in now because lif isn't fair and you got dealt a bad hand.

This. I keep reading how everyone used to look so good, get laid every night (i doubt they did) and hair is everything that matters, if thats the case get a hair system/SMP + transplant and keep doing it. Hair loss is depressing, we all know. Mainly beacuse of the draw backs in life. But there are thing that can be done, with great results. People will atleast see/treat you like they used to and thats what matters (for me at least). Sure, life wont be what it used to be, careless and all of that. But you'll have to accept it, see it as a handicap. Could aswell have been something else.
Everyone think their problems are the worst.